sit still.

caught up in this vast sea of
indefinites
incomrehensibles
inaudible responses
independence
in a mind that i could never recognize as my own.

in a moment where the structures that you have fought so hard to assemble begin to cleave from their foundations - not ones of values, or strong holds, but of something abstruse.
with a swift tug and innocent motives,
it can all be unleashed.

it's not an epiphany,
it's not.
it is, however, a realization of
where i'm at
where i don't want to reside any longer
and what i need to do in order to fight the force of gravity.
that's right, "i".
after all, that is the essential part of this post, the thoughts that have proceeded to take over every aspect of my life for the past hundred days or so, and the only one whom i can put this on.

one letter can make all the difference.

a valiant effort, it will take, no doubt.
but i've discovered that if you want to make a change in yourself, then that's the key right there.
time to take the reigns.



i'm given far too much credit,
and lack the ability to give myself hardly any at all.
perhaps this tips the scale back to the equilibrium that is so desired..

but i doubt it.



"frame by frame, red speed ahead
a city dissolving, the thread of your love in the headlights
is it safe now .. will your arms be open?
i just have to kiss you, try and stop me
closing in, i hope that you make it
closing in, i hope that you find your way"






i could go for some of -



- this right about now.









i need some new post it notes.