love is a risky business

Reading between the lines can be very challenging.
I try not to do it, but let's be honest here.. we all do. And - sometimes - it's necessary. Sometimes it can also just make things alot more complicated than was ever needed.
Not knowing things is frustrating.


I definitely had one of those days a little while ago where everything seems perfect. So many things could go wrong during the day, but when you're falling asleep you're still convinced that the entire day went your way. You even get the perfect sleep.
(I'm happy)
You wouldn't think being happy would be an accomplishment, kind of is though. Especially with what it relates to.
Hm.


Ranting is great, especially when few people know what you're referring to.
Mandie is not, in fact, going crazy.. no she does have her reasons, very good ones in fact, to be rambling like a mindless idiot.
And now she's talking about herself in the third person..
Great.

(Jackie puts Tim Hortons cup to her ear)
"Hey Mandie, I can hear the ocean!"
Mmhm.

So, why is it that I can look at everyone else and tell right off the bat who they like?
And then when it comes to me, I'm apparently completely oblivious?
I'd like some answers - because that's how i work.
I hate unanswered/unanswerable questions.
And i seem to ask alot of them.


Why is John Mayer dating Jessica Simpson?


Smiles give everything away.
I must stop having a face that shows whatever I'm feeling.
Or maybe it's a good thing?


you kind of make my heart skip a beat.

x = unknown.

I am incredibly frustrated with math at this point.
I'm going into the arts, so why the heck do I need to consistently stress myself out with this subject? argh.
Life was so much easier in grade 8 when half of the math class consisted of playing around the world. I was amazing at that game. I miss it. Perhaps I'll plot to convince Mr. Templeton to scratch the Math Test tomorrow, and play around the world instead. Hooray for flashcards.

So, seeing as I have a bit of an inspiration to rant at this point, I think I'll just go with it.
First of all, msn is wrecking my typing skills. I now have to backspace and write "i" as "I" everytime I'm typing something that is actually of any substance, since msn destroys all existence of capital letters. At least I still spell words right.. if anyone still writes cool as 'kool' or even worse 'kewl', please stop doing so as of now. Trust me, it's for your own best interest, and for that of my sanity.

Destiny. Is there such a thing? Is it actually possible to have a person who you are destined to end up with, and if so, is it always the case that you will end up with them? I'd like to think so - I think.
They say that 'you are in control of your own destiny'. But doesn't that contradict itself in all entirety? Destiny is defined as "the inevitable" (yes I know, I'm a nerd), so how can we control the inevitable?
Secondly, if you are destined to be with someone, does that mean that they will be the person you love?

Relationships are a complete mystery.


Time to make a list.
Life goals perhaps? They will be random. Consider yourself warned.

go skinny dipping
produce a record
star in a popular film
win an oscar
meet adam brody
live in a dorm
finally find a band that andie hasn't already heard of, ugh
see a boy cry
learn to be mean when needed
ride a horse
take a road trip with jessica
finally watch casablanca
have the perfect day
go to europe
adopt a little girl from china
do new years multiple times in one night by flying around the world
sit on my roof with andie and watch stars
complete university
get married
get a bunny - name him waffles
get a teddy bear from a boy
buy a little red dress
jump into a pool with all my clothes on



I'm sure the list will continue.



I like mascara.

everything is antiquated.

So, I now have a blog.
I can't decide whether or not this is a good thing.

First of all, I've discoverd that the 'would you rather' game passes alot of time when you're stuck in a car for..what was it..7 and a half hours? Although my dad still hasn't decided between Ellen or Oprah, I think the game was a success. And I'm incredibly surprised that I have not yet run out of things to talk about with Jess and Krista, considering I was with them for 20 hours straight?

Lately I've definately gotten back into the habit of making pro-con lists. Mock if you like, but I make them for everything. Wierd thing is..I can't decide if they actually help or not. I just keep making them, ah.

I have a question, do dreams actually mean something? Or are they just completely random? Answers, please.

Well, only two days til a March break full of movie nights, watching the OC, a concert, shopping, and wishing I was someplace warm.
And tomorrow I have to do my audition, scared? Yes.

I want a thunderstorm.