June 26, 2007

i need some meaning i can memorize.

first off:
i don't believe in capital punishment.
and i can't quite get my brain around how anyone could think that they have the right to decide the fate of someone's life.
we all have equal status, although that seems to be something that's generally misunderstood,
and how could anyone other than God even consider themselves to have the authority to make such an important decision as to whether a person will live or die?
all they are doing is taking away opportunity.


breathe.


ever just have one of those days where it seems like everything is going wrong?
when in reality so many things are working out in your favor,
but there's that one thing that's on your mind that just doesn't seem to be happening,
so you feel like the world is out to get you..
and then you burn your lunch and you make it into such a big deal that you could swear that the national guard would need to be called or something..
i really really hate being in that frame of mind.

and usually i like that one minute,
and lately i feel like the clock is just mocking me.
kind of feels like just a subconscious thing now,
but this wasn't supposed to happen to me too.
what's a (non-overused) synonym for damn?

the realization that you can't fix everything is inevitable,
at some point you just need to accept the fact that all you can do is
be there
listen
and occasionally listen to some death cab.



"it's ryan vs. seth"
-jv
in case everyone hasn't realized..
our lives are the oc,
more than /any/ of you may realize..

10 comments:

Andy said...

only two of us are lining up, but if you want to figure out some more comparisons -- i'm down.
see. it works this way.

i'm trying to think of a time this semester (or this year, really) where i didn't feel like the world was out to get me.
more recently i felt like god himself was just playing a huge joke on me. it's a long story of me being completely frustrated with him and his plans. and his sense of justice and fairness. it kept me up every night until i became apathetic.

Andy said...

oh, and just a question that may need to be answered/one that you put in there and i feel needs to be at least recognized:
what wasn't supposed to happen to you too?

mandie. said...

think andy.
the clock..
what mindset on a certain moment changed for someone else..
and has now somewhat changed for me

Jon Berg said...

I've had so many days like that in recent weeks. Its frustrating how one thing can govern . . (all)every thing(s).

i'm slowly recovering i think.
but i do relapse every so often.

Abram said...

Yeah human sin/choice is a bitch.

Would you give up choice for happyness?

Abram said...
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Abram said...

sry if the above sounds retarted, must be the wording.

phil said...

listen to music that you used to listen to, years ago. it fixes everything. well... no it doesn't, but it's cool anyway.


daft punk.

Andy said...

good call, phil, good call.
on the music. not daft punk. just the concept, haha.

phil said...

hey daft punk is sweet. and they're coming back from the dead too, why, just recently I heard a Kanye song making use of soundbytes from 'Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger'.
eh? eh?