of course i remember.

i need to take a day off from life right about now.
i think i'll do that tomorrow.
done.

everything is a countdown, i've discovered.

1 month

5 minutes

11 months

2 hours

2 years

5 days.
scratch that, 4 days.

it's decision time all around.

time to take action on the things that i've been thinking about.

and, depending on outcomes, turn to my back up plans.

but really, in all honesty, i don't have very good back up plans,

because i always know exactly what i want, and if i don't get that then i have to scramble to figure out what else i could possibly want - because no one likes to not know.

which brings me to this week.

now the question is: back up plan or no back up plan,
because back up plans are never very good.
it's always just settling,
and no good ever seems to come from that.



i did this all in my own time,
and now that time seems to be running out maybe i'll stick with my deadline.
i'm not so sure i know what's best for myself this time.



this makes me happy.

worn me down like a road.

dear me,

i think i might snap and say it all.

signed,
a very uncharacteristic side of me.




re: hello me,

keep your mouth shut
keep your mouth shut
keep your mouth shut.

-me.





i'm officially in love with a fictional character,
this could be a problem.