sometimes you just have to take a step back.

silence
silence
silence
hey
great timing.

anticipation, fireworks, new beginnings, stolen moments, questions, glances, and days and days.
constellation of frustration
an inch might as well be a mile


unknown

unsaid

yellow.

"if this is giving up, then i'm giving up, giving up"

i need to stop second guessing myself
i need to stop second guessing my decisions
it's hard to believe that things are finally moving forward
(in one area at least)
time to keep the fingers crossed

stolen glances

(i'm tired of endings)
i like feeling safe
i like knowing i'm secure
half the fun is the risk,
but the initial feeling wears off soon enough

"all my resistance will never be distance enough"

simple as that

I'm done.

Pin Your Wings Down (Copeland)

It's time to get specific, without getting specific.

How long are we going to keep secrets for? We assume that they'll come out eventually, but you can never be sure. There's definitely no guarantee, even if you want one.
I've discovered that sometimes you have to decide whether things are worth taking a risk over What's hard is that when you think of taking a risk you usually imagine it working out in your favour, although alot of the time that's not the case. So is it /really/ worth taking the risk over?
There is a large possibility that nothing will ever come of it.
I think I made that decision a long time ago, and I'm sticking to it.

I seem to be lacking words alot lately, which may be the root of the problem.
It's so easy to assume that what you want is understood by more than just yourself. But how can it be unless you find the words? If you need to hear something then it would seem you have to make that apparent.
Except that's not an option, it's never an option
Or maybe it is, and I'm just not willing to accept that yet

Only time can ever tell,
but in the meantime I'm perfectly fine with being distracted. It's a good system I have going on here, and one that could work for awhile. Just keep me hanging on by a little bit, deal?
I like feeling safe
And I like taking a risk knowing I'm safe in taking it

Funny how I seem to find out information after the time period that it could have had an affect on me. Less decisions to make I suppose, and now more secrets. Where to draw the line..
Nevertheless, these next few months, and especially this next month, is going to be amazing

89, just thought you should know.

suffice it to say,
we're leaving things unsaid


r o l l e r c o a s t e r


what happens when an indecisive person makes a decision that they can't help but make?
it scares me.
not the whole making the decision part, but it being unavoidable in general.
and trying to convince yourself otherwise seems like the only option,
until you realize that it's impossible to do,
and the decision was ultimately inevitable.
why is it that things can be so out of your control

heart over mind is what this is

and then we get our hopes up
and realize it
so then we try not to
so we think about not getting our hopes up
and that only makes us think about it more
which gets our hopes up even more
...vicious circle

please,
just
say
it

i hope something exciting happens tomorrow,
stop thinking about it
stop thinking about it

And not to say a thing tonight.

smiles all around

i love days like this,
and yes i realize most people are in a weird funk when they blog which allows for very profound writing, and ultimately undecipherable writing.
However, I don't expect that kind of a mood to come very soon, things are good. So this is going to have to be a happy blog,
deal.

pussy cat dolls may be slightly slutty (understatement of the year?),
but they have some good concepts going on in their songs.. plus they're great to dance to.
(girls you all know you turn on 'don't ya' and dance around in your room in your underwear)
so, here's a little inspiration for all the ladies.
here's what you need to listen to:
I Don't Need A Man - Pussy Cat Dolls


i finished a puzzle,
finally.









thank you to africa for the help.. well.. alot of help to be honest,
i'm not very good at puzzles (from lack of experience, or just lack of talent perhaps)
but i finished it.
i'm quite proud of my accomplishment.


risks are hard to take
seems like they would be easy,
especially when you go over it in your head time and time again
and then you snap back to reality and realize 'when would i ever get up the nerve to do that'
i'm hoping that i do,
sometime
timing is everything i suppose
i think we all have bad timing,
how promising
well, here's hoping that i get up the nerve



it's the little things that matter,
and you've got that down pat.

love is a risky business

Reading between the lines can be very challenging.
I try not to do it, but let's be honest here.. we all do. And - sometimes - it's necessary. Sometimes it can also just make things alot more complicated than was ever needed.
Not knowing things is frustrating.


I definitely had one of those days a little while ago where everything seems perfect. So many things could go wrong during the day, but when you're falling asleep you're still convinced that the entire day went your way. You even get the perfect sleep.
(I'm happy)
You wouldn't think being happy would be an accomplishment, kind of is though. Especially with what it relates to.
Hm.


Ranting is great, especially when few people know what you're referring to.
Mandie is not, in fact, going crazy.. no she does have her reasons, very good ones in fact, to be rambling like a mindless idiot.
And now she's talking about herself in the third person..
Great.

(Jackie puts Tim Hortons cup to her ear)
"Hey Mandie, I can hear the ocean!"
Mmhm.

So, why is it that I can look at everyone else and tell right off the bat who they like?
And then when it comes to me, I'm apparently completely oblivious?
I'd like some answers - because that's how i work.
I hate unanswered/unanswerable questions.
And i seem to ask alot of them.


Why is John Mayer dating Jessica Simpson?


Smiles give everything away.
I must stop having a face that shows whatever I'm feeling.
Or maybe it's a good thing?


you kind of make my heart skip a beat.