"hot damn"




find a way to be okay with not being anywhere at all.

(i want a contrast)



"but it felt so real"



never what i want
never what i expect
never what i think i need

well, apparently i was wrong.






i'm leaving this very unfinished.

caught in suspension

This Week's Playlist:
Elephant - Damien Rice
Do You Know (Ping Pong Song) - Enrique Iglesias
All The Fish In the Sea Are Stupid Sluts Anyway - Big Japan
Stay or Leave - Dave Matthews

wishing on 11:11 is more for the sole purpose of solidifying what you want in your own mind than actually expecting an outcome to be determined by a simple act of muttering a few words during an interval of 60 seconds.
parallel: santa clause is not real, sorry to burst your bubble. however, i still continue to lay out cookies and milk and carrots (for the reindeer) every christmas eve just for the sake of it. and possibly just for the satisfaction of knowing that my parents will have to eat them even if they don't want to because yes i will check for crumbs in the milk and count the fricken cookies in the jar if i have to.
why do my parallels always turn into a rant rather than make the point i originally intended them to make..

"i keep this as a constant reminder"
wow, those constant reminders tend to kick you in the ass on your way out the door if you know what i mean
why is it that we can never even begin to notice we're making a mistake until a long time after the fact

this was supposed to be a bit simpler than it's turning out to be
space
little details should not have this much impact
needing an outlet here, really

everything can get turned around by one simple action
i need to want something on my own, not have things pushed at me by my parents or anyone else
or, sometimes if i do want something, and then my parents try to push it at me..all of a sudden it's not so appealing anymore, in fact.. i downright want to get as far away from set idea as is physically possible,
kind of ruins it if you have something good going on

i hate the fact that all i'm doing is complaining,
and i've been trying my hardest to just overlook stuff that's going on inside this head of mine,
but i'm definitely missing that one joker card that trumps everything else,
..it would seriously come in handy right about now

university topic: co-ed floors, including co-ed bathrooms
thoughts, people?
you had better hope your towel doesn't slip on the way out

revelation:
i need to get a boyfriend or a new pair of heels,
either will do.